Happiness. Happiness was something Quinn Fabray had sought all her life, and it was something the young girl had finally found. She was dating Rachel Berry, the girl she had been in love with since freshman year; she and Santana were working on being friends again, and she was going to Yale. Everything had finally fallen into place. Quinn was leaving for Yale in a few days for the summer program, something she was very happy about. The only problem with leaving so soon was that she would have to spend a long time away from her girlfriend. She knew they would talk to each other daily, and visit each other as often as possible, but it wouldn’t be the same as seeing each other every day, kissing Rachel whenever she wanted to, or falling asleep with her in her arms. As much as she hated it, she knew the separation would be hard on both of them; not to mention that Rachel seemed very insecure about it. She had voiced her fear of losing Quinn to someone else, and if Quinn was honest with herself, she was afraid of Rachel finding someone else, too.
Quinn knew they needed to talk about this before she left for New Haven, which is why she was on her way to Rachel’s house. They planned on spending as much time together as possible before she left, and the blonde decided that they needed to have this talk today. She parked her red Beetle in front of Rachel’s house and noticed Hiram and Leroy weren’t home. Good, talking would probably be easier if they were alone. She locked her car and made her way to the front door. She entered the house, wondering where Rachel was. “Rachel? Where are you?” she asked loudly, and waited for her girlfriend’s reply.
Had you told Quinn Fabray that she would be going on a date with Rachel Berry mere months ago, she would have laughed. She never would have believed you, and would have pretended that the idea of ever going on a date with Rachel Berry was absolutely ridiculous. She wouldn’t have allowed herself to believe you, not one to get her hopes up. And now, here she was, in her bedroom, getting ready for her first date with Rachel Berry. She really had come a long way. From bullying the girl to starting a tentative friendship, telling her she loved her for the first time to kissing her for the first time, Quinn could hardly believe that everything had turned out so wonderfully well. Each of the steps that had led her to this day had been hard for Quinn, but she didn’t regret them. Well, she regretted some of them, but she didn’t regret how everything had turned out.
The previous week had been wonderful. After kissing the brunette in New York, Quinn had been able to kiss her numerous times and had even spent nights with the brunette, holding her or being held by her. It had been perfect, to say the least. And it was about to become even more perfect. They were going on a date together, and by the end of the night, Rachel would be hers. Officially.
Quinn had never taken anyone on a date before. That alone was enough to make her extremely nervous, the fact that the girl she was taking on a date was Rachel only made her nervosity worsen. She wanted everything to be perfect. She wanted to take Rachel on the kind of first date the girl deserved.
For a while, Quinn stood in front of her mirror, simply staring at her reflection. She was wearing a simple white dress, one that both Charlie and her mother had assured her was perfect for the occasion, light make up and black flat shoes. “Quinnie,” she heard her mother’s voice behind her and turned around. “You look beautiful,” Judy reassured her. “Now go, you don’t want to keep Rachel waiting.” A proud smile made it’s way to Quinn’s face. She could hardly believe how supportive her mother was being about her sexual orientation and her relationship with Rachel. They had both come a long way. “Thank you, mom.” After hugging her mother, Quinn left and made her way to Rachel’s house. Once there, she knocked on the door once and waited for someone to answer, a lilac rose bouquet in hand.
Rachel’s head snapped up when Quinn voiced her love. Her eyes softened and she couldn’t help but smile at the blonde. “I love you too, Quinn…” she said softly. She really did love the girl across from her. She’d loved Quinn since freshman year and it had always felt so hopeless because the blonde was this perfect, amazing girl. She’d always seen beneath the facade Quinn had shown the world. It’s what made her fall in love with the cheerleader back in freshman year. She could see the pain and hurt beneath the cold, calculated actions and all she wanted to do was hold Quinn and kiss away all of her worries. No matter how hard she’d tried though, Quinn hadn’t let her in. She’d almost given up.
Now both of their feelings were out in the open, but everything had become so messy. Now she had the chance to move on with Sammy, but her heart still ached. Why did her life have to be so complicated? Weren’t high school romances supposed to be fun and not so serious? It seemed that time had never been on hers and Quinn’s side. Would they ever get a chance to see if there was something special? She didn’t really know. Shaking herself out of those thoughts, Rachel looked at Quinn as she spoke. “I hope we can, Quinn. I’d love to visit you and have you do the same. I…I’d love to get phone calls from you,” she swallowed heavily. Just thinking about not seeing Quinn every week was choking her up. The blonde really did hold so much power over her even if she didn’t know it or use it. “I always want you to be a part of my future, Quinn. You’re…so important to me.” She threaded her fingers through Quinn’s and simply basked in the feeling. Maybe this was all she’d ever have and she wanted to remember it for as long as she lived.
Quinn’s heart started beating faster when Rachel said she loved her too. After carrying feeling for her for almost four years and never daring to believe they could be reciprocated, to hear Rachel say those four made Quinn feel like anything was possible. Like the most amazing things were possible. For years, Quinn had hated herself for those feelings. She had spent nights crying, praying God, asking him to make her normal, to forgive her for her sins. Now, she wondered how she had ever been able to believe her love for Rachel was wrong, a sin. Loving Rachel, being able to tell her those three words, it made Quinn feel happy, so happy, and to have Rachel say she loved her back, especially after everything they had been through, it made everything entirely more amazing.
Quinn looked at their laced hands, the ghost of a smile playing across her lips. As much as she couldn’t wait for high school to be over, she dreaded the day when she would have to leave. The idea of not being able to see Rachel everyday made her feel sick. They hadn’t had enough time together. Now they knew about each other’s feelings, and Quinn couldn’t help but wish she had been strong enough to tell Rachel before. Maybe then, they would have had a chance. Time had never seemed to be on their side. “You’re important to me too, Rachel.” She took a deep breath before continuing. “One of the most important person in my life.” The blonde bit her lower lip nervously and looked at Rachel. “Can we watch a movie? I’d really like to cuddle with you right now,” she told her, her soft smile turning in a small grin.
I’m not trying to be better than Sammy, I’m just trying to show that I would be good for Rachel. If Rachel chooses Sammy, then… There’s nothing I can do, but I’m not going to let her be the one that got away… I’ve done it too many times before, I’m won’t allow myself to do it again. All I can do is try, and that’s what I’m going to do.
Rachel frowned and pouted at the three in her hand. “Here you go. No fair. You got the first card you wanted on the first try,” she couldn’t hold the pout for long and grinned at Quinn. “I love spending time with you too. I love seeing you smile and be happy. It’s all I’ve ever wanted, Quinn. You deserve to be happy. We all do, but…you most of all.” She reached out and gave Quinn’s hand a squeeze. The blonde was so strong. Quinn had been through so much and she was only a teenager. It was hard not to admire her after going over every ordeal that had passed over the Fabrays. Rachel loved seeing Quinn this way. This amazing girl had gone through so many changes and so many versions of herself. Now here she was, still standing and more beautiful than ever. Not that she hadn’t been before, but now she was going off to an Ivy League college and fulfilling her dreams.
This Quinn was Rachel’s favorite. She was uninhibited and free. Her smiles were genuine and she finally seemed happy with who she’d grown to become. It made Rachel feel privileged to have seen the transformation. She only wished now that she’d continue to see Quinn grow into an even more stunning woman. “I’m so proud of you, Quinn. You’ve faced so much adversity and yet you beat all of the odds. I know you are going to do amazing things in the future and I just hope that I’ll be one of the people you share it with,” she blushed and looked down, tucking some hair behind her ear. How was it that being around Quinn always put her so off guard? The blonde was the one person who always managed to fluster her in some way.
A light laugh escaped Quinn’s lips as she watched Rachel pout and hand her the card. She took the three in her hand and placed the pair in front of her. She listened to Rachel speak, a soft smile gracing her lips. She was genuinely happy, and she couldn’t help but find it amazing. Mere months ago, the blonde would have laughed at someone’s face, had they told her she would find happiness again someday. “I love you,” she breathed out, her hazel eyes looking into Rachel’s brown ones. She then looked away, deciding to fixate her eyes on her cards. In a way, she wished her feelings for Rachel would go away. She loved the singer, so much, but not being able to be with her was painful. She wished she could be content just being Rachel’s friends, but she knew she would always want to be more. She wished the feelings would go away because she was tired of the pain she felt every time she saw Rachel with someone else. She was tired of the jealousy she had once felt toward Finn, Puck, Jesse and Charlie, and she was now feeling toward this Sam person. But at the same time, she didn’t want them to stop because loving someone was one of the most amazing feelings she had ever experienced. She just wished she was able to share that love with Rachel, to show her how much she loved her, to show her how this love had saved Quinn.
Quinn looked up at Rachel, who was now blushing. “Well, New Haven and New York are only an hour away. We can still spend time together, and I plan on calling you quite often,” she admitted. She allowed her thumb to brush over Rachel’s hand, before speaking softly. “I can’t imagine my future without you.” It was true. She could try to envision her future without Rachel in it, and it just didn’t feel right.
Rachel smiled and nodded at the suggestion. “Okay. Why don’t you get yourself some food and I’ll deal out the cards. We can play ‘Go Fish’! It’s my favorite game and I always enjoy it,” she grinned and pulled the cards out of their package. She began to shuffle the deck, looking serious and in full concentration as she bridged the cards. Before shuffling once more, she grabbed the stereo remote and turned it on for some mood music. She’d made sure to design a playlist for the evening that would include Celtic music amongst other Irish themes songs. Most of it was mellow and quite enjoyable for the evening. It wasn’t too upbeat and it would be easy to talk and have it in the background.
After finishing her third shuffle, Rachel began to deal out the cards they would need before setting down the deck to look at her hand and determine what she would need from Quinn on her first turn. She’d be lying if she didn’t admit that she loved having the blonde close by. Quinn was the epitome of everything she wanted and everything she wanted to be. Gorgeous, smart, mysterious, strong…there weren’t enough adjectives to describe the other girl. She was happy to have Quinn in her life in this capacity after everything that had happened.
Quinn took a few pieces of green pepper and ate them as she watched Rachel deal the card. She smiled as the sound of Celtic music filled the room and took the cards Rachel offered her. “Rachel, do you have any threes?” she asked, after thinking about what rank of card she should ask for for a few seconds. She looked at Rachel, a small smile gracing her lips. She wished she could spend more time with Rachel. More time alone with her. When she was with Rachel, Quinn could be herself. She knew Rachel would accept her no matter what. When she was with Rachel, she was happy. “I love spending time with you,” she admitted to Rachel. “Thank you for inviting me tonight.” She bit her lower lip before adding, “I missed this. Being with you, just… Being myself. Being… Happy.” She offered a shy smile as she said the last word. For so long, she had been unhappy. To be able to say she was happy made her proud, somehow, and she couldn’t help but think that if it weren’t for Rachel, she wouldn’t be able to say it.
Rachel beamed at Quinn, her eyes sparkling. “Well, you are the guest so you get to choose. I have puzzles and card games and movies of course! Plus, there is lots of food and it isn’t all vegan. I know you like meat dishes so I made a few things you might like as well. Plus, dad and daddy aren’t vegan either so I’m sure they will dig in when they get the chance,” she said before taking a seat on the sofa. “I tried to make sure you would have an enjoyable time here. There is no alcohol, but I figured we could still have fun without being intoxicated. Plus, I’d like to remember this evening and the time I’m spending with you.” She patted the seat next to her on the couch and waited for Quinn to sit down.
“Feel free to choose whatever you wish. We have plenty of time to spend doing different things and I’m sure not everything is your favorite, but I figured the more I had the better the choice. I’m just happy to be spending my Saturday night having a fun party with you,” Rachel took a piece of broccoli and swiped it in the dip before chewing on it.
Quinn listened to Rachel, a slight smile on her lips. She was grateful about the meat dishes Rachel had prepared. While she didn’t mind eating vegan food, she would much rather eat non-vegan food. For a second, Quinn wondered how she could not have an enjoyable time with Rachel. Spending time with her was pretty much the highlight of Quinn’s days, Rachel being one of the few people Quinn who made Quinn happy.
Quinn sat down next to Rachel and offered her a bright smile. “No alcohol is perfect. I’m sure tonight is going to be perfect.” She took a moment to think about what they could do first, and decided they could start with a game. “We could play cards,” she told Rachel before pouring herself a glass of green fruit punch and taking a sip of it. She also made a mental note to propose to watch a movie later. Watching movies with Rachel usually meant cuddling with her, something Quinn would never say no to.
Rachel had made sure to get everything ready for the evening. She’d decorated the house with clovers and shamrocks, spreading green streamers around the halls. She’d made a vegan casserole with broccoli and made a veggie tray with green peppers and broccoli. She’d even baked a vegan cake and used food coloring to make it green. The punch she’d created was a delicious fruity green concoction. The living room was laid out with games and puzzles all pertaining to Ireland and the movies that were set out also had an Irish theme. When she had finally gotten dressed properly for the evening, she wore a green shirt and her favorite argyle skirt that had mixed green tones. A green headband adorned her head and she was ready for whatever the evening would bring.
Hearing the door, she rushed to get it and see Quinn. Her mood was happy ever since Dani had come home and explained everything to her. Rachel couldn’t help it. It seemed things were finally falling into place. Charlie was happy and moving on with her sister, she had met Sammy in English class, and her and Quinn were getting to be really good friends. Part of her would always love Charlie and she didn’t think she’d ever be able to stop loving Quinn considering the blonde had been in her heart for almost four years, but maybe they’d all be okay. Opening the door, she smiled at Quinn. “Hello, Quinn! Come in. You didn’t have to make anything, but those cookies look delicious,” she smiled and took the plate of cookies from Quinn, allowing her friend to step inside. “You look lovely as always. Please make yourself comfortable. I have all of the food laid out on a table in the living room. I’ll put these cookies there as well.” She bounced away into the living room to setup the dish properly.
Quinn’s smile grew even wider than it already was when Rachel opened the door. The brunette looked absolutely beautiful. “Hi Rachel,” Quinn replied enthusiastically. “You look amazing,” she added, a hint of shyness in her voice. “Thank you for inviting me. Those cookies were the least I could do. They’re vegan, hopefully you’ll like them.” Quinn walked into the house and noticed how decorated it was. She also noticed a delicious smell in the air, probably the food Rachel had made. “It smells wonderful,” the blonde complimented before following Rachel into the living room.
Quinn didn’t expect to walk into some green wonderland. Decorations covered the walls, and all the food seemed to be St. Patrick’s day themed. There were games and movies that all seemed to be somehow related to St. Patrick’s Day and Ireland. It made Quinn laugh lightly. Where did Rachel get all of those things? She decided not to ask, and instead picked up one of the movies to take a look at the back cover. “I’ve never celebrated St. Patrick’s Day before,” the blonde admitted to Rachel as looked at another movie. “What should we do first?” she asked, assuming they would spend the evening watching movies or playing some of the games Rachel owned.
St. Patrick’s Day was a holiday Quinn had never really celebrated, but she was really excited to celebrate it for the first time with Rachel. In her text, Rachel had mentioned she had planned some appropriate activities and Quinn couldn’t help but wonder exactly what those activities were. Surely, they would be very entertaining. After receiving Rachel’s text message, Quinn decided to bake a batch of cookies and decorate them with icing cover leaves quickly. The blonde decided to wear a green Anthropologie dress with a black cardigan, figuring it would be an appropriate outfit to celebrate St. Patrick’s Day. Once she was dressed, she grabbed a notebook and a pen, and scribbled a note for her mother, saying she would be spending the evening at her friend’s house.
The drive to Rachel’s house was short, and soon enough, Quinn was standing outside the Berry’s house, a plate of vegan cookies decorated for St. Patrick’s Day in hands and a bright smile on her face. She knocked on the door lightly three times and waited for someone to answer. She wondered if Rachel’s father and Dani would be there. Quinn knew the Berry celebrated a lot of holidays together, which meant they would probably be there. She didn’t mind. She really liked the Berry men and Dani. Her smile grew a little wider at the thought of Rachel’s twin, who was now apparently dating Charlie. Quinn was really happy for them. While she didn’t know Dani all that well, she could see the girl cared a lot about her sister and would be a great girlfriend to Charlie.